thoughts and feelings

I truly hate to leave here. I want more than anything to be in my comfort zone with people I've already come to love but being abused as I was and covering it up for as long as I did has taken a huge toll on me mentally and physically. as a small number of you know I'm fighting cancer. I've beaten it in my body but the tumors in my brain are inoperable. they are thankfully seeming to be stagnant or extremely slow growing but I've started to notice some affects in the last couple months. the more stress I'm under the worse I seem to be affected. I don't even know why I'm sharing this but I guess I just want someone else besides him to know what I'm going thru. I've been so alienated from everyone I know because of him and his jealousy. I'm so very lonely and afraid. not even my family is there for me as they used to be. maybe I shouldn't share so many of my feelings and woes in such a public place. that being said. I'm a person with a heart that feels and with no one else to listen I bring this to yall. the only people I have left that seem to care.

you are the strongest woman I know. cry it out tonight and tomorrow when you've slept stress free things will seem brighter. I know your heart hurts you love to completely for it not to. I can't speak for everyone but you are well love here and I'm sure I'm not the only one praying for you.

I hope you find the peace you deserve and need, down what ever path you choose to take or unfolds for you. I wish you the best.