I have a confession to make. I broke the cardinal rule and fell for a kgirl provider. She is in an AAMP in NorCal, but I’m posting here because this is my home community and if anyone can relate to the allure of a beautiful asian companion and the simplicity of the AMP environment, it’s this group. Plus, this is not the kind of thing I can get off my chest at home!
I’ve seen here several times ove the past three months as work has taken me to the area. She leaves for Korea in 7 days, so not possible to see her again. Saw her last week for the last time. A little pillow talk as the session is ending and she looks at me with a solemn expression and asks, “is this the last time?”. A few minutes later she touches my cheek and says she’ll miss me and, BAM...felt like I was hit by a truck, and realized I have fallen for this girl...HARD.
Naturally, the reality is I fell for the fantasy, as I really know very little about her. We’re connected on K-Talk, but like mine, it’s an alias identity. And, while there is no doubt a personal connection, the magnitude is clearly one-sided. Plus, there’s the whole RW life thing. Even with all of these rational thoughts, I’ve still been walking around in a funk for a week. I’m such an idiot.