It happens to all of us and you loose the anticipation .
Lot of times your fantasy turns to disappointment and then you find yourself asking yourself - damn the things I do for pussy- Is it worth it?
That's why I go back to a ATF that I know won't disappoint me every so often and it's more like seeing a old friend than the thrill of meeting a new provider.
Sometimes you just have to back off and take a break when that doesn't work...
Take 2 or 3 months off and then sit in a hotel by yourself and loose your ass at the casino.....then you'll think damn I should of spent this money on a provider.
You do anything too much you loose perspective.