You know what I love? What I love the most? When you have something that you don't have your heart set on, where you know it probably won't happen, but you find yourself thinking several times "what if", only to have reality turn around a tell you it will never happen. Love those. Love those even more than actually having your heart set on something and it never happens. So thankful for the hobby. At least for 1 hour my mind can slip away and pretend that all of it is real. Ugh, this is why I hate alcohol and don't drink anymore. It burdens me with the opposite feelings of happiness (my mistake for tonight).
So yeah, thank you to all the providers. You give me that one brief moment of peace and happiness. Even though it's not real.