For the past few weeks I haven't been seeing too many clients. My apologies. My energy level has really dropped and my belly size has made it difficult to do as much as I'm used to. To be honest I am worried that I will not be able to perform like my old reviews (being Hell Bunny and all). I've been struggling with serious low energy due to being anemic. This pregnancy has been really hard on me. Especially with a lowered immune system. I've been struggling very badly. There is a chance I might be evicted, lose my truck, and get my power turned off. I am selling furniture and anything else that I can. Even my bed if need be (I can deal with sleeping on blankets on the floor). And to be honest...I'm terrified. Terrified that I will end up in the homeless shelter with my kids again. I've never had such a crappy pregnancy so I admit I didn't plan properly. Thankfully I had some wonderful clients from the board that helped me with Christmas presents for my kids. I am eternally grateful. I truly hate asking and I feel like dirt even doing this but I need help. If you want to buy any furniture, need a babysitter (for any providers that need it), have any odd jobs that I can do, or anything..please I beg you to let me know. I have requests to travel to Austin but my doctor thinks I could go into labor any day and I've been having panic attacks when I'm in a vehicle (thankfully only when pregnant) so traveling is not an option for me right now. My ex is trying his best to find a new job to support me during this period but he's also trying to make sure he's helping with me since I've been so exhausted and weak from the anemia and low immune system. I have no family and no local friends. Any kind of help would be great. Even if it's just advice (please no bashing as I'm already bashing myself enough for not planning properly) or locations of places that are hiring (he's looking for something temp). I was going to try and work this weekend but honestly not sure how I will do because lately it's been hard just to get out of bed and walk around and I've been in a lot of pain pelvis and hip wise. I feel like I'm failing my kids. I'm very confused because part of me is yelling at me to shut up and work but then my body is begging for rest.
Thank you again for your time.
Malaya