So here is the deal- I've just entered into this realm of the Hobby under world. I've seen several providers and just about every body rub girl in ft worth. It completely satisfies my hunger for sex and yet I feel like Im getting to involved. The fear of getting caught is of course an issue but I play it safe. I've met some really great women and needless to say I have not yet experienced a horrible or "scary" in counter. I'm just wondering how the rest of you have figured out how to separate this from our Normal lives. I served 8 years in the military- with 3 tours under my belt and so for me to find such a world has almost consumed me- its an ultimate fantasy for me but it seems to have consumed every ounce of my day- I surf this web page along with BP- looking for that one provider- Im a man that enjoys variety so I can't help but to keep looking. At times I have seen multiple women in one day. Dropping hundreds a day and even more through out the week. I have even dropped as much as 1200.00 in one visit. I'm what most providers would say as a very attractive guy, I don't have issues finding women out side the hobby and I have a very beautiful wife yet I can't seem to shake the addiction of my new found hobby. I don't want to either, I enjoy these women and find some of them very interesting. I'm having a hard time separating this from reality and Im afraid to say anything to anyone outside the hobby because: hey, let's face it- this isn't exactly an approved venue I'm flirting with. I'm not bitching or crying, Im just looking for ideas as to how some of you guys or ladies cope with the double life. I have not spoke to a counselor since I was honorably discharged from the services and honestly couldnt trust them if i did,,, I feel like I owe this to myself to experience what I find is a great interest to me. So, please feel free to come back with your comments, I can handle it. Haha, if not, fuck at least you could point me in the right direction to the next lovely lady that would like to exchange in convo and 4 play