Sigh. I've always done what I can to ensure clients are pleased. As I do not know what was in the review I will explain what happened from my point of view. I got there and we decided to drink and relax. So we played some video games (which I sucked at). I wasn't really watching the clock. I realized we had been doing so for an hour so I was teasing him about sitting far away from me and for him to join me on the bed. It was like dragging a turtle out of it's shell. It was like he was shy. We had hung out before and I thought of him as a friend. So I finally managed to get him in the bed (after he was walking around his apartment for a little bit doing I don't know what). I start to cuddle with him to get him started. He's specifically was looking for someone to be rough with. So I encouraged that. We switched a couple of positions and he would yell out that he was enjoying it while I took the pain. I was way in over my head. In the beginning it was great. But half way through when the alcohol was wearing off and it become super painful for me because of his size. And I couldn't provide the way I normally do. And I failed him.
Like I told him..I wish he had told me he was unhappy. I would've happily made up for it. I take the man's lead most of the time. Especially then and I admit. That shit hurt but I took it because I wanted to please him. But I wasn't encouraging him on either. I was too busy trying to take the pain. So again. My apologies. I now know that I am not compatible with BIG sizes because it interferes with my ability to perform. I'd rather not be fighting pain. I'd rather be enjoying my time.
Well that's my side of it. I have no ill feelings towards him. I am sorry I couldn't please you and I did try. I would've tried to make up for it with a BNG or something but I don't think that matters anymore. The damage has been done. I was in the wrong and I admit that. I thought I could handle the pain but I couldn't. It was out of my area of expertise. I was concentrating on tolerating the pain so much that I couldn't really get into it. So I know he has reason to be upset. I left so quickly because I was near tears at the end from the pain. I'm sorry, PlayIVKeeps. I really did try to make you happy. I am deeply saddened that I failed.
Malaya