LOL @ carguy & darter
@Spursfan - I wouldn't judge too quickly. It may have been long ago, but you were new once too. I dont' think any of his issues are abnormal for a newbie.
Now... back to topic.
@Marley You are new to this and that can limit the ladies that will see you until you have some good references under your belt. It's possible that due to your nerves you misread her discomfort. As a newbie, she is taking a big risk seeing you. I'm not newbie friendly; however, whenever I see someone new BCD, I'm always nervous the first time. I know newbie friendly providers have their own screening method; however, it's possible that she stays slightly reserved until the session is complete without a knock on her door. She may have also picked up on your nervousness and unintentionally responded in a way that made you feel that she wasn't "into you". This is one of the many reasons I am not newbie friendly, I don't do well with someone that walks in with nerves & guilt balled up inside them. However, there are many newbie friendly providers, that excel in working past that and making it a great experience.
Of course, the aforementioned explanation that Jez gave is also very possible. The hobby could be her J-O-B instead of her passion. That is why premium access is key for guys so they can read the entire review, not just how she looks.
Marley based on your post, it seems that you like the chase,fantasy,which is fine. If you decide to act upon it,I think the guilt will be too much to carry, you'll tell your SO, and end up losing her. You need to be honest with yourself. Good luck, with your decision, whatever it may be.